Four Lines.........................

On my way to school, these four lines came to my head from nowhere:

The Mere Sight Of You Sets Me On Fire,

You Are My First And Foremost Desire,

I Beg You To Trust Me Because I Am Not A Liar,

Just Hold My Hand And I Will Take You Higher.

The next line which came to my head was: You Are A Priceless Gem That I Truly Adore. But I could think of any other lines to complete a four line stanza. I read these five lines to my friend and this is what he said, after thinking for a little while: " I Would Surely Have Made You My Queen, If You Weren't A Whore". Well, he made me laugh my ass off, but I couldn't add this line to my poem, for obvious reasons.

Study!! Study!! Study!! Study!!

This is the great pile of books which I would be needing to Study!! from for my CIE examinations which will take place in May/June 2013. Just looking at this photograph sends a chill down my spine, BRRRRRRRR!!!!
 

Damn Convo Killers!!!!!!!

There are some words in this world that were created only to be loathed. Sometimes I don't even consider them words and sometimes I ask God that, why did He let such words be created by Mankind?? You are the Creator and the Almighty, you could have easily prevented the birth of such heinous words. Well, it's really bad to question God's will but still, WHY?? 

I'll just stop ranting about why these words were created. Let's take a look at these words which I hate so incredibly much. Here they are:

 WHATEVER!!!!  or WHATEVZ!!!: This word is so rude. I have never said this word to anyone but I get it a lot. It is like saying: : "I don't give even the slightest damn about whatever you are saying and whatever you are saying is total and absolute bullshit". Well, this word was born to be hated.  

OKAY and its siblings: OK, K,  and KAY: K. K. K. K. I just never wanna see this word again but can't help, ITS EVERYWHERE and on everyone's tongue. This word gives me a heart attack and a stroke all at the same time. 
   
BYE: UUUUGGGHHH!!!! this one is the king of convo killers. Its an absolute heartbreaker. Plus if you write bye with a long face like this one: "-________-", I feel like dying, that's just too much for me to handle. Its way toooo rude. Never did I say bye to anyone like that. 



Well, that all folks!! 
Note: All the text above is full of exaggeration, us baat kay liye main tahay dil se app se muazzrat khua hyun :P.  

 

  

OMG, I Am Trapped, Save Me!!!!!!

Chemistry is quite a difficult subject and you can not even start attempting a chemistry exam without having the appropriate knowledge to solve a question. Well, this post is not at all about chemistry. Its about a girl who attends the same chemistry tuition classes which I attend. I didn't even know her and I did not even wish to know her actually.
So, the problem started when one day, after class, she asked me to bring her some snacks from the shop situated just in front of our tuition centre. She gave me a few hundred rupees. So, I said OK, no problem and then I brought her whatever she wanted. And I thought that this would be the end of it. But no, absolutely not, it did not end then and there.
The next day, after class: I am talking to my friends and then she comes to me and says: "Yaar ice cream la do, is k liye bhi la dena" ( pointing towards one of her friends). In my head I was like : "Yaaaaaaaaar :/, why me. Now I cant even refuse or else a lot people would think that this guy is a rude freak". So I brought her whatever she wanted again. My friends were laughing at me like lunatics.
And just yesterday, just before I could enter my class, she (that horrid little beast) saw me, she pleaded: "Yaar achay bhai please pani ki aik bottle la do, please achay bhai". Then I said: "Yaar, there is a whole lot of other guys just standing idle outside, ask them". I think she didn't even hear me and she continued like please please please la do. Totally exasperated, I brought her a bottle of water. 

I am starting to fear tuition just because of her. Now when I enter my class, I have to be really careful, so that her sight doesn't catch me. She can be anywhere, waiting for me like a lion waiting for a deer in the grass. And she can strike at any moment from any direction. Yesterday, I just ran from my coaching centre to the bus stop, caught the first chinchi I saw and saved myself from her evil clutches. I attend my coaching classes in constant fear now. Allah saved me yesterday magar kab tak??? I am bound to be caught one day or another. OMG, save me, Im trapped :(.

Last night one of my friends started teasing me. She had seen that girl talking to me at Hibrow (thats the name of my coaching centre btw). I was teased in the following way:
I randomly asked my friend : "Wanna have a laddo??". She said: No, I would instead like to have a gulab jamun, of your wedding with that beaconhouse girl. You and her <3". I was like: OHHH NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!, never even say that again, please. Me and her, that would not be even a bit less than a nightmare". But she kept on teasing like both of you look good together and yaar is hi tarah tou larkiyan phasati hein larkon ko. I said: she called me "Bhai" so it proves that she is absolutely not after me. My friend said: there is nothing such as a brother-sister relationship between na mehrams, and that is the basic reason why na mehrams are called na mehrams. I said you're killing me but she kept teasing. I had to change the subject of our conversation to save myself from a stroke, brain hemorrhage or a really serious heart attack. 

GOD HAVE MERCY ON ME BECAUSE EVERY TIME I SEE HER NOW,I AM LIKE:

I might have exaggerated things a bit in the story above. but you don't know me, I am an stranger to you. So just take pleasure in my distress.

My Stupidity Made My Life Weird.........

When we have something we take it for granted and do not give it much importance, but you realize its importance in your life when you lose it. Never should anything should be taken for granted in life. I myself destroyed something really good that I had in my life. I am a person who gets angry very very rarely, but I have no clue that why did I let my anger take over me and make me do what I did. Now I feel weird all the time, things seem to be out of their place. Sometimes im depressed. Sometimes I go extremely sad. The sense of guilt is just too painful, I try to get over it but its not easy get over with it. I want to kick and punch myself for for the stupid things I have done. Most of all, I wish to go back in time and stop myself from doing all whatever bad I did. Well, thats impossible so I'll just have to try and forget the past. I should have believed in my own judgement and should have thought over about what I have to do before I actually did it.

I want to talk like a guy who just got dumped by his girlfriend, whom he had gotten after endless efforts, and has now fallen to the deepest pits of depression. And to be honest, I have never had a girlfriend (and sometimes I wonder: who the hell even needs one, oh well). There is always a happy side of our lives which we tend to ignore because of all our problems and worries.

So, my papers went well and these days at school, we are being given our papers back. My scores arent very much great but at least Im not failing in any of the subjects Alhumdulillah. 

Recently, I learned how to ride a motorcycle. Firstly, it seemed quite impossible but when I saw children half my age riding motorbikes like a boss, I told myself that, how hard could it possibly be?? everyone does it. Its just like a bicycle except that it has an engine and requires petrol. It's fun actually but dangerous too.

Thats all.

EXAMS!!!! (>_<)

My Mid-term exams are approaching. I am not freaking out and extremely worried or something but I have a friend who likes to give me loads of tension. He makes everything look 100 times more harder than it really is. He can make people sweat their shirts wet by filling their mind with endless worries. Sometimes I just feel like saying that : "Yaar chup hoja, kyun mera dimagh kharab kar raha hai extra tension de kay", but I don't wanna make him feel bad so I just keep quiet and let him rant on. People shouldn't really do this. They should rather help other to do what seems to be difficult, not transfer their worries to others. 
Oh well, that's all. These exams don't matter much and what really matters is the CIE. I pray to Allah that He helps me out in my CIE exams and grants me good grades. I just have to keep on working hard.       

Random Blabbering

Just forget the past and move on to the future. You cant finish a book if you keep on going back and read the pages you have gone through already :).

This year, Bakra Eid was just amazing. My khala from London came to Pakistan and her children, my cousins, made my Eid unexpectedly awesome!!!! especially her eldest daughter Aqsa, who was really fun to talk to. Sadly, they were here only for a week, I miss all of them. My Eid wouldn't have been any better.

This year, my school campus changed. We went from North Nazimabad to the Karachi SITE area, GODDAMMIT!!! >__<. 

Why are girls so complicated ??__?? I will never understand women. They are like the most difficult, nerve wrecking, spine twisting Additional mathematics question. WTH, even Einstein was clueless regarding the mechanism of women.

Good people always get kicked in the ass before life rewards them. Bad people are rewarded early in life so that they receive their BPL (BUM pe LAAT) at such a point in their life that they are not able to recover.

I Really Love Rafya's Blog. I really do and I really love what she writes. If anyone who is reading this post wants to read something really good then visit:   www.vanishingfromtheworld.blogspot.com. Its one of the best blogs, VISIT NOW HURRY!! :D

Sometimes I feel that I am being very lame. This feeling makes me sad and there is no one in my life who would hear me out and motivate me. Khair koi baat nai, ALLAH (SWT) sab theek kardein gay. HE always has. :)

I really feel like killing somebody.

When things are being loved instead of people and people are being used like things then there can be no peace. Let's NEVER be materialistic, whatever you have will go away one day or another.

My recent reads: KANE AND ABEL BY JEFFREY ARCHER and THE LAST DON BY MARIO PUZO.

THAT'S ALL FOLKS!

I don't know what I am writing but maybe this is what happens when you are blogging after a million years, but perhaps i would come up with something which is worth reading after sometime.

Thank You SOOOOO much!!

Sometimes I feel like pulling my hair out.
Sometimes I want to cry like a baby when I feel weak and helpless.
Sometimes I literally wish to die.
Sometimes I am very ungrateful for everything I have even though my life is filled with things other people only wish to have.
Sometimes I want to live my life in a chaotic way and  obey no one.
Sometimes I want to be rebellious and do everything I am never supposed to do.



BUT then I stop and think, I contemplate. Who Am I?
Am I not a Muslim?
Am I not supposed to thank Allah for all He has blessed me with?
Am I not one of the followers of Prophet Muhammad(saw)?
Don't I have all the necessities of life?


All these simple yet big questions make me realize that being rebellious and living your life in chaos is just not worth it. Everything should be organized and planned and we should do things in a proper manner. For all the things I had, for all the things I have today and ALL the things and happiness which I pray Allah would grant me, I AM THANKFUL TO HIM FOR ALL THAT. ALHAMDULLILAH!

Its My Birthday

Today is 16th September, 2012, as we all know and I turned 17 today. At my place we never celebrate birthdays so it was just an ordinary day and there was nothing special about this day. My birthdays are never exciting, its just another ordinary day. 
Well, there is at least one plus point to this day, I turned 17 and that's it. I will never be able to go back and be young and silly and foolish and be as innocent and simple as I once used to be. Everything in the world is in a constant state of change and so now many things in my life will change, that I know very clearly. This year is going to be a very hard one. It will exhaust me beyond imagination but if I am at my best in this very important year of my life, then what I will get would be beyond expectation and  a cause of great happiness for me.

Worried like Hell!!!!!!! :(

My last year of O'levels has started and I am totally confused about what to do. Teachers are saying that getting good grades in Pakistan studies and Islamiyat is no big deal and only good grades in Mathematics , the three Sciences(i.e. is Biology, Chemistry and physics) and English language would bring you any good.
School is taking us nowhere except for giving huge piles of homework and tests to prepare for. After school you are so exhausted that you do not have the capability to do any type of work. You go to sleep and when you wake up you hardly have time to do anything.
Teaching in school is of such a level that I don't think that I would be able to pass without taking tuition or notes of other good teachers from my friends. We go to school only so that we have someone to recommend us and so that we have a reputation of belonging to a good institute, otherwise school has become a waste of time. You go there only to waste your energy and then you can do nothing just because you are so Goddamn tired.
Now I am totally confused about what to do, how to manage my time and cope with all the work. I have so much to study and the time available is miniscule. 
I just hope that everything turns out right and end up getting what I want. And I am prepared to work hard and achieve what I want to. 

 IM FREAKING OUT!!!!

One Thing

I got my ass KICKED!

It wants to go away the moment it comes back!!!

Ramazan- comes and goes as fast as possible. The last few days of this blessed month are now slipping away from our hands and everyone is shopping. The birds and beasts are also shopping. Even the ants are shopping right now I think.

Now the time has come to go back to your normal lives and leave our disorganized ramazan life for a complete year. Most people would agree with me that ramazan turns your life upside down. we are awake at night, sleeping in the day and we usually don't work much because we are feeling thirsty and hungry till azan e Maghrib. So there remains no order in your life and there is chaos everywhere , not total chaos but chaos anyway.

EID MUBARAK TO EVERYONE IN ADVANCE!!!!

 

Monday, August,2012!!!!!

Finally!!!!!!!!!!! after months of waiting the day had come. The day of the O'Levels CIE results.

When I woke up monday morning my head was aching like HELL. I was so worried about my result, because in my mind I knew that I hadn't given my best in Pakistan studies and Islamiyat examinations. Maybe it was the truth or maybe it was only a stupid thought. Later it became crystal clear that it was only a stupid thought.

I went to school trying to forget that today was the day when we will be handed our CIE results.Though the results were only for two papers but they meant a lot. It was also the first time me and a lot of my friends were giving any kind of CIE papers.

The results were being given inside the school library. The students were being called in one by one. After a few minutes, my turn came. I was fidgeting nervously as I had no idea what awaited me beyond the library's door. My heart was about to jump out of my chest at any moment. It started pounding then it relaxed and this happened on and off until I was called in. I had a little chat with the middlers's section coordinator then she asked me about my expectations. I had already braced myself for this question and according to the consensus of me and my friends, I had to say an A and a B. And that is what I really expected. But what I got was really beyond my wildest dreams.

"Congratulaions, Farooq" she said while giving me that singe sheet of paper. I GOT TWO A's. Suddenly I was totally relieved. And I had never felt better in my life. 

Through out my life up till now I had been a little below average students. Getting the worst possible results all the time. I never got what I expected to get.

I came out of the room and I was trembling all over. I couldn't feel my legs, my voice was unsteady and I felt weightless. 

This was one of the best days of my life which I will never ever forget :).

 

Why Racism?

The reason for many fights which went on for years and years, with no end in sight. Just discriminating on the basis of skin color, race, tribe or language. Racism, a curse upon mankind, created by mankind.

Prophet Muhammad (SAW) told in his last sermon that no one is better than the other except the fear of GOD. The more fear of God a person has the better that person is.

But in this so called modern world, only the good-looking, rich, and white people are seen as humans. Others are denied their rights, they are humiliated, and looked down upon.

Every human being has two legs, two eyes, a nose, a mouth, two ears and almost everything is the same on the inside. The only difference is outwardly like facial features, skin tone, gender and height .But the point is that that they are all humans. So how can we possibly look down upon someone and say that he or she belongs to a low grade family, just on the basis of a few differences.

But the world is full of heartless assholes, and we can do nothing about it. People just consider themselves to be somewhere above the normal human being. They think they are superior and they have the right to do anything they want and anyone who blocks their way faces a horrible fate.

Many many novels have been written, having racism as the main theme of the book. It exists almost everywhere. It may not be too much but it is there in small amounts here and there.

Its a disease with no cure.

Please comment and tell me your views on racism.   

Smoking!!!!!

UGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! One of the things I hate the most on this planet is Smoking. I hate everything about it. I hate the tobacco plants, I detest the people who cultivate it, I abhor the people who manufacture cigarettes. I SERIOUSLY want to burn down the companies that are promoting tobacco, cigarettes, cigars and smoking. I even hate the tiny filters through which the smoker smokes the cigarette. Plus the companies which make these cigarettes put up a warning on the pack that smoking is harmful and is the main cause of throat and lung problems. I say that if you are so goddamn worried about the health of the common man then why don't you just stop making cigarettes. That warning is the most pointless thing that can ever be written.

I never understand the point of smoking. What does it really do? why do people start it in the first place even when they very well know that it is addictive and harmful to the body? AND JUST WHY THE HELL DO YOUNG BOYS START SMOKING!!!!!!!???????

What is the point in looking like a car's exhaust. I saw one of my classmates smoking on the street and when I asked him that why are you smoking? he replies: " Yaar bus aik ya do pita hun puray haftay mein (Man, I smoke only once or twice in a whole week". I thought: why even once or twice in a week.

Its total bullshit and it ain't worth it. Its a waste of money and a way to disturb the sensitive balance within the human body.

Some people say ,mostly teens, that it makes you look like a cool dude. Well it makes you look more like a dumb person who desperately wants to kill himself. 

I pray to Allah (SWT) that He saves everyone from this curse. Once you get addicted there is literally no way to get rid of it and only a few people with the strongest of will powers succeed to quit it.


Anyone who reads this, please do comment and tell me what do you think about smoking?

This Is How My Heart Is, Big and Strong.

Pyari Maa

‘Kitni azeem shakhsiyat hai wok is ki hum khidmat nahi krte ‘
‘Us k ass pass hote hue bhi us ki Qadr nai krte’
‘Jab us ki maujoodgi hoti hai to qadr nahi aur jab qadr hoti hai to maujoodgi nahi"
‘Us ne humein itni takleefon se pala’
‘Badlay men hum ne us ki jholi men kia dala”
‘Us ne humein har mushkil se bachaya”
“Lekin hum ko apne pass ziada tar ghairhazir paya”
“Jab ghar se niklein hum to dua krti hai wo”
“Har lamha har waqt fiqar humari krti hai wo”
“Us ne mere liye apne har aram ko tarq kia”
“Sirf mere liye us ne kai pareshanion ka jam bhi pia”
“Meri khuahishaat k liye mar liya apne jia”
“Phir bhi kabhi uff tak na kia”
“Shuru se akhir tak us ne bus mujh ko dia hi dia”
“Apne beshumaar ehsanaat ka koi muafza bhi na liya”
“Ho hi to hai jo humari kamiabi k liye sab kuch har gai”
“Phir bhi dekho wo lakhon baziyan maar gai”
“To us ki khidmat karo aur us se pyar karo”
“Us se apne pyar k izhaar men intizaar na karo”
“Us k jaisi be loos muhabbat koi kar nahi sakta”
“Wo aisi nemat hai jis ka naim-ul-badal ho nahi sakta”
“Jab wo apna Dast-e-shafqat mere sir pe rakhti hai”
“Phir dunya ki har mushkil mujhe assan lagti hai”
“Ye shakhsiyat kon hai? Aur usey hum kia kehte hen”
“Ye dunya ki sab se azeem aur bari shakhsiyat hai aur sb usey MAAN! Kehte hen”

Robot.

Five simple rules for happiness/ How to live like a F*****G robot:

1. Free your heart from hatred.

2. Free your mind from worries.

3. Live simply.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less.

TIME IS A MORON

 Time is a moron , when its good it tries to run away as fast as possible as if its a Cheetah and when its not, it stays with you as long as it can stay with you and never seems to go away. When you are waiting for someone time starts to move like a snail and when you are sitting in the examination room and you desperately need time to think and write, time sits in a Quad-turbocharged Bugatti veyron and hits the gas like the FBI, ISI and CIA all three are after it.

Sometimes the way time acts, drives me crazy. When I am sitting in the most boring maths class and I don't have a single idea what's going on, time moves like a sloth and pushes me to the verge of exploding like RDX. And when you have nothing to do and you are bored like Hell, time dies away due to hypothermia(death due to freezing).

So I have come to the conclusion that time is a mean and selfish entity that moves in a speed which it prefers and never lets you enjoy life in the way you want to enjoy it. Sometimes it does allow you to enjoy your life but then it runs like Hell and takes your happiness away with itself. So the main and last point is that that TIME IS A BLOODY MORON.  

     Time's Personal Car

but time is also a remedy which heals both inwardly and outwardly wounds so I must say that time is not a complete moron. It is sometimes bad, sometimes good but its never totally bad or totally good.

Life a plate of Biryani!

When we look at life, you can say that is a set of events that leads one to his or her:

But there are many others ways also to look at life, and one of them is to view life as a Big Plate of Biryani!!!! 

If you don't get the idea then I can very easily explain it to you. So take it this way, the Rice in your plate is the amount of life you have and every spoon of Rice you eat is a day. Every ingredient present in the dish can be compared to a feeling, moment or event:

1) Chicken: Without chicken, Biryani can not even be called Biryani. Eating Biryani without it is a waste of precious time. It can be compared to the best memories and moments of our life. Without it, life would be very very boring. Biryani khai aur boti nahi mili tou mein tou kahun ga kay bhai app ki Biryani zaya gai.

2) Cardamom: This is the little THING which ruins the whole morsel and make you go at least half mad if not full. It can be compared to the irritating and boring events of your life and the moments you truly hate and you prefer to forget them ASAP.

3) Clove: This spice is a brother to the cardamom. It approaches you as silently as a tiger approaches a Gazelle and attacks like light and makes you dread the moment when you put THAT THING in your mouth unintentionally. I would compare it to the embarrassing times of our life and the failures from which we learn priceless lessons.

4) Potatoes: its good to have them but you can enjoy your biryani even without them. They can be seen as "Desires" and not "Necessities". You can live without your desires being fulfilled but can't live without your necessities being taken care of.   

The extras like Raita and salad are also very important but they are not necessary. I would compare these to things we do by going out of our ways and the things we occasionally do out of the ordinary. Sometimes you do these things, sometimes you don't and they are obviously not in your daily routine.         

So every spoon you consume is a day with a mix of everything. Good things, bad thing and everything you can possibly think of.

Well now you know how to look at life as a plate of Biryani and you even know whats happens when you place and swallow the last morsel, YOU DIE! 

So keep eating and never ever throw your plate of rice away cuz that will be suicide!