EXAMS!!!! (>_<)

My Mid-term exams are approaching. I am not freaking out and extremely worried or something but I have a friend who likes to give me loads of tension. He makes everything look 100 times more harder than it really is. He can make people sweat their shirts wet by filling their mind with endless worries. Sometimes I just feel like saying that : "Yaar chup hoja, kyun mera dimagh kharab kar raha hai extra tension de kay", but I don't wanna make him feel bad so I just keep quiet and let him rant on. People shouldn't really do this. They should rather help other to do what seems to be difficult, not transfer their worries to others. 
Oh well, that's all. These exams don't matter much and what really matters is the CIE. I pray to Allah that He helps me out in my CIE exams and grants me good grades. I just have to keep on working hard.       

Random Blabbering

Just forget the past and move on to the future. You cant finish a book if you keep on going back and read the pages you have gone through already :).

This year, Bakra Eid was just amazing. My khala from London came to Pakistan and her children, my cousins, made my Eid unexpectedly awesome!!!! especially her eldest daughter Aqsa, who was really fun to talk to. Sadly, they were here only for a week, I miss all of them. My Eid wouldn't have been any better.

This year, my school campus changed. We went from North Nazimabad to the Karachi SITE area, GODDAMMIT!!! >__<. 

Why are girls so complicated ??__?? I will never understand women. They are like the most difficult, nerve wrecking, spine twisting Additional mathematics question. WTH, even Einstein was clueless regarding the mechanism of women.

Good people always get kicked in the ass before life rewards them. Bad people are rewarded early in life so that they receive their BPL (BUM pe LAAT) at such a point in their life that they are not able to recover.

I Really Love Rafya's Blog. I really do and I really love what she writes. If anyone who is reading this post wants to read something really good then visit:   www.vanishingfromtheworld.blogspot.com. Its one of the best blogs, VISIT NOW HURRY!! :D

Sometimes I feel that I am being very lame. This feeling makes me sad and there is no one in my life who would hear me out and motivate me. Khair koi baat nai, ALLAH (SWT) sab theek kardein gay. HE always has. :)

I really feel like killing somebody.

When things are being loved instead of people and people are being used like things then there can be no peace. Let's NEVER be materialistic, whatever you have will go away one day or another.

My recent reads: KANE AND ABEL BY JEFFREY ARCHER and THE LAST DON BY MARIO PUZO.

THAT'S ALL FOLKS!

I don't know what I am writing but maybe this is what happens when you are blogging after a million years, but perhaps i would come up with something which is worth reading after sometime.

Thank You SOOOOO much!!

Sometimes I feel like pulling my hair out.
Sometimes I want to cry like a baby when I feel weak and helpless.
Sometimes I literally wish to die.
Sometimes I am very ungrateful for everything I have even though my life is filled with things other people only wish to have.
Sometimes I want to live my life in a chaotic way and  obey no one.
Sometimes I want to be rebellious and do everything I am never supposed to do.



BUT then I stop and think, I contemplate. Who Am I?
Am I not a Muslim?
Am I not supposed to thank Allah for all He has blessed me with?
Am I not one of the followers of Prophet Muhammad(saw)?
Don't I have all the necessities of life?


All these simple yet big questions make me realize that being rebellious and living your life in chaos is just not worth it. Everything should be organized and planned and we should do things in a proper manner. For all the things I had, for all the things I have today and ALL the things and happiness which I pray Allah would grant me, I AM THANKFUL TO HIM FOR ALL THAT. ALHAMDULLILAH!

Its My Birthday

Today is 16th September, 2012, as we all know and I turned 17 today. At my place we never celebrate birthdays so it was just an ordinary day and there was nothing special about this day. My birthdays are never exciting, its just another ordinary day. 
Well, there is at least one plus point to this day, I turned 17 and that's it. I will never be able to go back and be young and silly and foolish and be as innocent and simple as I once used to be. Everything in the world is in a constant state of change and so now many things in my life will change, that I know very clearly. This year is going to be a very hard one. It will exhaust me beyond imagination but if I am at my best in this very important year of my life, then what I will get would be beyond expectation and  a cause of great happiness for me.

Worried like Hell!!!!!!! :(

My last year of O'levels has started and I am totally confused about what to do. Teachers are saying that getting good grades in Pakistan studies and Islamiyat is no big deal and only good grades in Mathematics , the three Sciences(i.e. is Biology, Chemistry and physics) and English language would bring you any good.
School is taking us nowhere except for giving huge piles of homework and tests to prepare for. After school you are so exhausted that you do not have the capability to do any type of work. You go to sleep and when you wake up you hardly have time to do anything.
Teaching in school is of such a level that I don't think that I would be able to pass without taking tuition or notes of other good teachers from my friends. We go to school only so that we have someone to recommend us and so that we have a reputation of belonging to a good institute, otherwise school has become a waste of time. You go there only to waste your energy and then you can do nothing just because you are so Goddamn tired.
Now I am totally confused about what to do, how to manage my time and cope with all the work. I have so much to study and the time available is miniscule. 
I just hope that everything turns out right and end up getting what I want. And I am prepared to work hard and achieve what I want to. 

 IM FREAKING OUT!!!!

One Thing

I got my ass KICKED!

It wants to go away the moment it comes back!!!

Ramazan- comes and goes as fast as possible. The last few days of this blessed month are now slipping away from our hands and everyone is shopping. The birds and beasts are also shopping. Even the ants are shopping right now I think.

Now the time has come to go back to your normal lives and leave our disorganized ramazan life for a complete year. Most people would agree with me that ramazan turns your life upside down. we are awake at night, sleeping in the day and we usually don't work much because we are feeling thirsty and hungry till azan e Maghrib. So there remains no order in your life and there is chaos everywhere , not total chaos but chaos anyway.

EID MUBARAK TO EVERYONE IN ADVANCE!!!!