Four Lines.........................

On my way to school, these four lines came to my head from nowhere:

The Mere Sight Of You Sets Me On Fire,

You Are My First And Foremost Desire,

I Beg You To Trust Me Because I Am Not A Liar,

Just Hold My Hand And I Will Take You Higher.

The next line which came to my head was: You Are A Priceless Gem That I Truly Adore. But I could think of any other lines to complete a four line stanza. I read these five lines to my friend and this is what he said, after thinking for a little while: " I Would Surely Have Made You My Queen, If You Weren't A Whore". Well, he made me laugh my ass off, but I couldn't add this line to my poem, for obvious reasons.

Study!! Study!! Study!! Study!!

This is the great pile of books which I would be needing to Study!! from for my CIE examinations which will take place in May/June 2013. Just looking at this photograph sends a chill down my spine, BRRRRRRRR!!!!
 

Damn Convo Killers!!!!!!!

There are some words in this world that were created only to be loathed. Sometimes I don't even consider them words and sometimes I ask God that, why did He let such words be created by Mankind?? You are the Creator and the Almighty, you could have easily prevented the birth of such heinous words. Well, it's really bad to question God's will but still, WHY?? 

I'll just stop ranting about why these words were created. Let's take a look at these words which I hate so incredibly much. Here they are:

 WHATEVER!!!!  or WHATEVZ!!!: This word is so rude. I have never said this word to anyone but I get it a lot. It is like saying: : "I don't give even the slightest damn about whatever you are saying and whatever you are saying is total and absolute bullshit". Well, this word was born to be hated.  

OKAY and its siblings: OK, K,  and KAY: K. K. K. K. I just never wanna see this word again but can't help, ITS EVERYWHERE and on everyone's tongue. This word gives me a heart attack and a stroke all at the same time. 
   
BYE: UUUUGGGHHH!!!! this one is the king of convo killers. Its an absolute heartbreaker. Plus if you write bye with a long face like this one: "-________-", I feel like dying, that's just too much for me to handle. Its way toooo rude. Never did I say bye to anyone like that. 



Well, that all folks!! 
Note: All the text above is full of exaggeration, us baat kay liye main tahay dil se app se muazzrat khua hyun :P.  

 

  

OMG, I Am Trapped, Save Me!!!!!!

Chemistry is quite a difficult subject and you can not even start attempting a chemistry exam without having the appropriate knowledge to solve a question. Well, this post is not at all about chemistry. Its about a girl who attends the same chemistry tuition classes which I attend. I didn't even know her and I did not even wish to know her actually.
So, the problem started when one day, after class, she asked me to bring her some snacks from the shop situated just in front of our tuition centre. She gave me a few hundred rupees. So, I said OK, no problem and then I brought her whatever she wanted. And I thought that this would be the end of it. But no, absolutely not, it did not end then and there.
The next day, after class: I am talking to my friends and then she comes to me and says: "Yaar ice cream la do, is k liye bhi la dena" ( pointing towards one of her friends). In my head I was like : "Yaaaaaaaaar :/, why me. Now I cant even refuse or else a lot people would think that this guy is a rude freak". So I brought her whatever she wanted again. My friends were laughing at me like lunatics.
And just yesterday, just before I could enter my class, she (that horrid little beast) saw me, she pleaded: "Yaar achay bhai please pani ki aik bottle la do, please achay bhai". Then I said: "Yaar, there is a whole lot of other guys just standing idle outside, ask them". I think she didn't even hear me and she continued like please please please la do. Totally exasperated, I brought her a bottle of water. 

I am starting to fear tuition just because of her. Now when I enter my class, I have to be really careful, so that her sight doesn't catch me. She can be anywhere, waiting for me like a lion waiting for a deer in the grass. And she can strike at any moment from any direction. Yesterday, I just ran from my coaching centre to the bus stop, caught the first chinchi I saw and saved myself from her evil clutches. I attend my coaching classes in constant fear now. Allah saved me yesterday magar kab tak??? I am bound to be caught one day or another. OMG, save me, Im trapped :(.

Last night one of my friends started teasing me. She had seen that girl talking to me at Hibrow (thats the name of my coaching centre btw). I was teased in the following way:
I randomly asked my friend : "Wanna have a laddo??". She said: No, I would instead like to have a gulab jamun, of your wedding with that beaconhouse girl. You and her <3". I was like: OHHH NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!, never even say that again, please. Me and her, that would not be even a bit less than a nightmare". But she kept on teasing like both of you look good together and yaar is hi tarah tou larkiyan phasati hein larkon ko. I said: she called me "Bhai" so it proves that she is absolutely not after me. My friend said: there is nothing such as a brother-sister relationship between na mehrams, and that is the basic reason why na mehrams are called na mehrams. I said you're killing me but she kept teasing. I had to change the subject of our conversation to save myself from a stroke, brain hemorrhage or a really serious heart attack. 

GOD HAVE MERCY ON ME BECAUSE EVERY TIME I SEE HER NOW,I AM LIKE:

I might have exaggerated things a bit in the story above. but you don't know me, I am an stranger to you. So just take pleasure in my distress.

My Stupidity Made My Life Weird.........

When we have something we take it for granted and do not give it much importance, but you realize its importance in your life when you lose it. Never should anything should be taken for granted in life. I myself destroyed something really good that I had in my life. I am a person who gets angry very very rarely, but I have no clue that why did I let my anger take over me and make me do what I did. Now I feel weird all the time, things seem to be out of their place. Sometimes im depressed. Sometimes I go extremely sad. The sense of guilt is just too painful, I try to get over it but its not easy get over with it. I want to kick and punch myself for for the stupid things I have done. Most of all, I wish to go back in time and stop myself from doing all whatever bad I did. Well, thats impossible so I'll just have to try and forget the past. I should have believed in my own judgement and should have thought over about what I have to do before I actually did it.

I want to talk like a guy who just got dumped by his girlfriend, whom he had gotten after endless efforts, and has now fallen to the deepest pits of depression. And to be honest, I have never had a girlfriend (and sometimes I wonder: who the hell even needs one, oh well). There is always a happy side of our lives which we tend to ignore because of all our problems and worries.

So, my papers went well and these days at school, we are being given our papers back. My scores arent very much great but at least Im not failing in any of the subjects Alhumdulillah. 

Recently, I learned how to ride a motorcycle. Firstly, it seemed quite impossible but when I saw children half my age riding motorbikes like a boss, I told myself that, how hard could it possibly be?? everyone does it. Its just like a bicycle except that it has an engine and requires petrol. It's fun actually but dangerous too.

Thats all.

EXAMS!!!! (>_<)

My Mid-term exams are approaching. I am not freaking out and extremely worried or something but I have a friend who likes to give me loads of tension. He makes everything look 100 times more harder than it really is. He can make people sweat their shirts wet by filling their mind with endless worries. Sometimes I just feel like saying that : "Yaar chup hoja, kyun mera dimagh kharab kar raha hai extra tension de kay", but I don't wanna make him feel bad so I just keep quiet and let him rant on. People shouldn't really do this. They should rather help other to do what seems to be difficult, not transfer their worries to others. 
Oh well, that's all. These exams don't matter much and what really matters is the CIE. I pray to Allah that He helps me out in my CIE exams and grants me good grades. I just have to keep on working hard.       

Random Blabbering

Just forget the past and move on to the future. You cant finish a book if you keep on going back and read the pages you have gone through already :).

This year, Bakra Eid was just amazing. My khala from London came to Pakistan and her children, my cousins, made my Eid unexpectedly awesome!!!! especially her eldest daughter Aqsa, who was really fun to talk to. Sadly, they were here only for a week, I miss all of them. My Eid wouldn't have been any better.

This year, my school campus changed. We went from North Nazimabad to the Karachi SITE area, GODDAMMIT!!! >__<. 

Why are girls so complicated ??__?? I will never understand women. They are like the most difficult, nerve wrecking, spine twisting Additional mathematics question. WTH, even Einstein was clueless regarding the mechanism of women.

Good people always get kicked in the ass before life rewards them. Bad people are rewarded early in life so that they receive their BPL (BUM pe LAAT) at such a point in their life that they are not able to recover.

I Really Love Rafya's Blog. I really do and I really love what she writes. If anyone who is reading this post wants to read something really good then visit:   www.vanishingfromtheworld.blogspot.com. Its one of the best blogs, VISIT NOW HURRY!! :D

Sometimes I feel that I am being very lame. This feeling makes me sad and there is no one in my life who would hear me out and motivate me. Khair koi baat nai, ALLAH (SWT) sab theek kardein gay. HE always has. :)

I really feel like killing somebody.

When things are being loved instead of people and people are being used like things then there can be no peace. Let's NEVER be materialistic, whatever you have will go away one day or another.

My recent reads: KANE AND ABEL BY JEFFREY ARCHER and THE LAST DON BY MARIO PUZO.

THAT'S ALL FOLKS!

I don't know what I am writing but maybe this is what happens when you are blogging after a million years, but perhaps i would come up with something which is worth reading after sometime.

Thank You SOOOOO much!!

Sometimes I feel like pulling my hair out.
Sometimes I want to cry like a baby when I feel weak and helpless.
Sometimes I literally wish to die.
Sometimes I am very ungrateful for everything I have even though my life is filled with things other people only wish to have.
Sometimes I want to live my life in a chaotic way and  obey no one.
Sometimes I want to be rebellious and do everything I am never supposed to do.



BUT then I stop and think, I contemplate. Who Am I?
Am I not a Muslim?
Am I not supposed to thank Allah for all He has blessed me with?
Am I not one of the followers of Prophet Muhammad(saw)?
Don't I have all the necessities of life?


All these simple yet big questions make me realize that being rebellious and living your life in chaos is just not worth it. Everything should be organized and planned and we should do things in a proper manner. For all the things I had, for all the things I have today and ALL the things and happiness which I pray Allah would grant me, I AM THANKFUL TO HIM FOR ALL THAT. ALHAMDULLILAH!

Its My Birthday

Today is 16th September, 2012, as we all know and I turned 17 today. At my place we never celebrate birthdays so it was just an ordinary day and there was nothing special about this day. My birthdays are never exciting, its just another ordinary day. 
Well, there is at least one plus point to this day, I turned 17 and that's it. I will never be able to go back and be young and silly and foolish and be as innocent and simple as I once used to be. Everything in the world is in a constant state of change and so now many things in my life will change, that I know very clearly. This year is going to be a very hard one. It will exhaust me beyond imagination but if I am at my best in this very important year of my life, then what I will get would be beyond expectation and  a cause of great happiness for me.

Worried like Hell!!!!!!! :(

My last year of O'levels has started and I am totally confused about what to do. Teachers are saying that getting good grades in Pakistan studies and Islamiyat is no big deal and only good grades in Mathematics , the three Sciences(i.e. is Biology, Chemistry and physics) and English language would bring you any good.
School is taking us nowhere except for giving huge piles of homework and tests to prepare for. After school you are so exhausted that you do not have the capability to do any type of work. You go to sleep and when you wake up you hardly have time to do anything.
Teaching in school is of such a level that I don't think that I would be able to pass without taking tuition or notes of other good teachers from my friends. We go to school only so that we have someone to recommend us and so that we have a reputation of belonging to a good institute, otherwise school has become a waste of time. You go there only to waste your energy and then you can do nothing just because you are so Goddamn tired.
Now I am totally confused about what to do, how to manage my time and cope with all the work. I have so much to study and the time available is miniscule. 
I just hope that everything turns out right and end up getting what I want. And I am prepared to work hard and achieve what I want to. 

 IM FREAKING OUT!!!!

One Thing

I got my ass KICKED!

It wants to go away the moment it comes back!!!

Ramazan- comes and goes as fast as possible. The last few days of this blessed month are now slipping away from our hands and everyone is shopping. The birds and beasts are also shopping. Even the ants are shopping right now I think.

Now the time has come to go back to your normal lives and leave our disorganized ramazan life for a complete year. Most people would agree with me that ramazan turns your life upside down. we are awake at night, sleeping in the day and we usually don't work much because we are feeling thirsty and hungry till azan e Maghrib. So there remains no order in your life and there is chaos everywhere , not total chaos but chaos anyway.

EID MUBARAK TO EVERYONE IN ADVANCE!!!!

 

Monday, August,2012!!!!!

Finally!!!!!!!!!!! after months of waiting the day had come. The day of the O'Levels CIE results.

When I woke up monday morning my head was aching like HELL. I was so worried about my result, because in my mind I knew that I hadn't given my best in Pakistan studies and Islamiyat examinations. Maybe it was the truth or maybe it was only a stupid thought. Later it became crystal clear that it was only a stupid thought.

I went to school trying to forget that today was the day when we will be handed our CIE results.Though the results were only for two papers but they meant a lot. It was also the first time me and a lot of my friends were giving any kind of CIE papers.

The results were being given inside the school library. The students were being called in one by one. After a few minutes, my turn came. I was fidgeting nervously as I had no idea what awaited me beyond the library's door. My heart was about to jump out of my chest at any moment. It started pounding then it relaxed and this happened on and off until I was called in. I had a little chat with the middlers's section coordinator then she asked me about my expectations. I had already braced myself for this question and according to the consensus of me and my friends, I had to say an A and a B. And that is what I really expected. But what I got was really beyond my wildest dreams.

"Congratulaions, Farooq" she said while giving me that singe sheet of paper. I GOT TWO A's. Suddenly I was totally relieved. And I had never felt better in my life. 

Through out my life up till now I had been a little below average students. Getting the worst possible results all the time. I never got what I expected to get.

I came out of the room and I was trembling all over. I couldn't feel my legs, my voice was unsteady and I felt weightless. 

This was one of the best days of my life which I will never ever forget :).

 

Why Racism?

The reason for many fights which went on for years and years, with no end in sight. Just discriminating on the basis of skin color, race, tribe or language. Racism, a curse upon mankind, created by mankind.

Prophet Muhammad (SAW) told in his last sermon that no one is better than the other except the fear of GOD. The more fear of God a person has the better that person is.

But in this so called modern world, only the good-looking, rich, and white people are seen as humans. Others are denied their rights, they are humiliated, and looked down upon.

Every human being has two legs, two eyes, a nose, a mouth, two ears and almost everything is the same on the inside. The only difference is outwardly like facial features, skin tone, gender and height .But the point is that that they are all humans. So how can we possibly look down upon someone and say that he or she belongs to a low grade family, just on the basis of a few differences.

But the world is full of heartless assholes, and we can do nothing about it. People just consider themselves to be somewhere above the normal human being. They think they are superior and they have the right to do anything they want and anyone who blocks their way faces a horrible fate.

Many many novels have been written, having racism as the main theme of the book. It exists almost everywhere. It may not be too much but it is there in small amounts here and there.

Its a disease with no cure.

Please comment and tell me your views on racism.   

Smoking!!!!!

UGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! One of the things I hate the most on this planet is Smoking. I hate everything about it. I hate the tobacco plants, I detest the people who cultivate it, I abhor the people who manufacture cigarettes. I SERIOUSLY want to burn down the companies that are promoting tobacco, cigarettes, cigars and smoking. I even hate the tiny filters through which the smoker smokes the cigarette. Plus the companies which make these cigarettes put up a warning on the pack that smoking is harmful and is the main cause of throat and lung problems. I say that if you are so goddamn worried about the health of the common man then why don't you just stop making cigarettes. That warning is the most pointless thing that can ever be written.

I never understand the point of smoking. What does it really do? why do people start it in the first place even when they very well know that it is addictive and harmful to the body? AND JUST WHY THE HELL DO YOUNG BOYS START SMOKING!!!!!!!???????

What is the point in looking like a car's exhaust. I saw one of my classmates smoking on the street and when I asked him that why are you smoking? he replies: " Yaar bus aik ya do pita hun puray haftay mein (Man, I smoke only once or twice in a whole week". I thought: why even once or twice in a week.

Its total bullshit and it ain't worth it. Its a waste of money and a way to disturb the sensitive balance within the human body.

Some people say ,mostly teens, that it makes you look like a cool dude. Well it makes you look more like a dumb person who desperately wants to kill himself. 

I pray to Allah (SWT) that He saves everyone from this curse. Once you get addicted there is literally no way to get rid of it and only a few people with the strongest of will powers succeed to quit it.


Anyone who reads this, please do comment and tell me what do you think about smoking?

This Is How My Heart Is, Big and Strong.

Pyari Maa

‘Kitni azeem shakhsiyat hai wok is ki hum khidmat nahi krte ‘
‘Us k ass pass hote hue bhi us ki Qadr nai krte’
‘Jab us ki maujoodgi hoti hai to qadr nahi aur jab qadr hoti hai to maujoodgi nahi"
‘Us ne humein itni takleefon se pala’
‘Badlay men hum ne us ki jholi men kia dala”
‘Us ne humein har mushkil se bachaya”
“Lekin hum ko apne pass ziada tar ghairhazir paya”
“Jab ghar se niklein hum to dua krti hai wo”
“Har lamha har waqt fiqar humari krti hai wo”
“Us ne mere liye apne har aram ko tarq kia”
“Sirf mere liye us ne kai pareshanion ka jam bhi pia”
“Meri khuahishaat k liye mar liya apne jia”
“Phir bhi kabhi uff tak na kia”
“Shuru se akhir tak us ne bus mujh ko dia hi dia”
“Apne beshumaar ehsanaat ka koi muafza bhi na liya”
“Ho hi to hai jo humari kamiabi k liye sab kuch har gai”
“Phir bhi dekho wo lakhon baziyan maar gai”
“To us ki khidmat karo aur us se pyar karo”
“Us se apne pyar k izhaar men intizaar na karo”
“Us k jaisi be loos muhabbat koi kar nahi sakta”
“Wo aisi nemat hai jis ka naim-ul-badal ho nahi sakta”
“Jab wo apna Dast-e-shafqat mere sir pe rakhti hai”
“Phir dunya ki har mushkil mujhe assan lagti hai”
“Ye shakhsiyat kon hai? Aur usey hum kia kehte hen”
“Ye dunya ki sab se azeem aur bari shakhsiyat hai aur sb usey MAAN! Kehte hen”

Robot.

Five simple rules for happiness/ How to live like a F*****G robot:

1. Free your heart from hatred.

2. Free your mind from worries.

3. Live simply.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less.

TIME IS A MORON

 Time is a moron , when its good it tries to run away as fast as possible as if its a Cheetah and when its not, it stays with you as long as it can stay with you and never seems to go away. When you are waiting for someone time starts to move like a snail and when you are sitting in the examination room and you desperately need time to think and write, time sits in a Quad-turbocharged Bugatti veyron and hits the gas like the FBI, ISI and CIA all three are after it.

Sometimes the way time acts, drives me crazy. When I am sitting in the most boring maths class and I don't have a single idea what's going on, time moves like a sloth and pushes me to the verge of exploding like RDX. And when you have nothing to do and you are bored like Hell, time dies away due to hypothermia(death due to freezing).

So I have come to the conclusion that time is a mean and selfish entity that moves in a speed which it prefers and never lets you enjoy life in the way you want to enjoy it. Sometimes it does allow you to enjoy your life but then it runs like Hell and takes your happiness away with itself. So the main and last point is that that TIME IS A BLOODY MORON.  

     Time's Personal Car

but time is also a remedy which heals both inwardly and outwardly wounds so I must say that time is not a complete moron. It is sometimes bad, sometimes good but its never totally bad or totally good.

Life a plate of Biryani!

When we look at life, you can say that is a set of events that leads one to his or her:

But there are many others ways also to look at life, and one of them is to view life as a Big Plate of Biryani!!!! 

If you don't get the idea then I can very easily explain it to you. So take it this way, the Rice in your plate is the amount of life you have and every spoon of Rice you eat is a day. Every ingredient present in the dish can be compared to a feeling, moment or event:

1) Chicken: Without chicken, Biryani can not even be called Biryani. Eating Biryani without it is a waste of precious time. It can be compared to the best memories and moments of our life. Without it, life would be very very boring. Biryani khai aur boti nahi mili tou mein tou kahun ga kay bhai app ki Biryani zaya gai.

2) Cardamom: This is the little THING which ruins the whole morsel and make you go at least half mad if not full. It can be compared to the irritating and boring events of your life and the moments you truly hate and you prefer to forget them ASAP.

3) Clove: This spice is a brother to the cardamom. It approaches you as silently as a tiger approaches a Gazelle and attacks like light and makes you dread the moment when you put THAT THING in your mouth unintentionally. I would compare it to the embarrassing times of our life and the failures from which we learn priceless lessons.

4) Potatoes: its good to have them but you can enjoy your biryani even without them. They can be seen as "Desires" and not "Necessities". You can live without your desires being fulfilled but can't live without your necessities being taken care of.   

The extras like Raita and salad are also very important but they are not necessary. I would compare these to things we do by going out of our ways and the things we occasionally do out of the ordinary. Sometimes you do these things, sometimes you don't and they are obviously not in your daily routine.         

So every spoon you consume is a day with a mix of everything. Good things, bad thing and everything you can possibly think of.

Well now you know how to look at life as a plate of Biryani and you even know whats happens when you place and swallow the last morsel, YOU DIE! 

So keep eating and never ever throw your plate of rice away cuz that will be suicide!

Dont Give Up.

Abandon the darkness, embrace the Light.

Try harder and the solution shall surely come in sight.

Rebuke wickedness and show the world your might.

Shun what is wrong and do what seems right.

Let your conscience and soul be your guide.

Do not overthink and let the confusion subside.

Don't go on pondering on what has passed away.

Not in the direction of evil let your heart sway.

Let not your opportunity fly away today, in the hopes of tomorrow.

Or later you may regret your actions and cry in sorrow.

At this very moment, your whole being might be in pain.

But be very sure that your efforts will not go in vain.

Underestimating yourself shall not lead to any gain.

Feeling hopeless and downtrodden can only drive you insane.

Today your resources may be mere.

But you never know, life will surprise you when and where.

Be not careless and take of yourself good care.

May you have the strength with which all hardships you may bear. 

These verses came to me out of nowhere, I hope that the people who read it, like it (^_^).

    

Big Bang!

After watching all the 5 seasons I come to the conclusion that I love these guys especially Sheldon Lee Cooper (Jim Parsons). This show was the funniest show I had ever seen. There ain't nothin' you can compare to this show. 

Superb writers

John Grisham

Sydney Sheldon

 James Patterson.

Dan Brown.

Why The Horrible wait :(

Assassin's Creed is one of the best games in the world. I have already finished Assassin's Creed 1, Assassin's Creed 2, Assassin's Creed Brotherhood and the latest part Assassin's Creed Revelations. Assassin's Creed 3 is to be released on October 31st 2012. Oh God! This games is my obsession and the release date of the new game in the series is so close yet so far. Oh God this wait is killing me. I hope the wait ends ASAP :). CANT WAIT x(.   

Rage Faces

You people must be thinking that why do I use Rage faces.

Actually the rage faces express many feeling in a single picture and you don't have to write down what you felt, its just one pic and the others get what you mean.

And they are really funny and it amazes me that the maker of the rage faces made a face for almost every feeling.

Something UNEXPECTED!

17 July 2012 01:14 AM : One of my Pal texts and asks me to call him.

17 July 2012 01:17 AM : I called him, and he told me something which I could have never expected to hear!

He told me that after he completes his A'Levels his parents would get him engaged to a cousin of his. In the first place I was like:

But later he told me that he was not kidding and he was bloody serious which turned my reaction into:

   And then I said: Now you are one of the goners man! XD.

Heartbreaking

The friend who is on the top of my friends list, texts me: 

Don't ever text me again, because I am switching off my cell phone, Bye.

And then I am like:

 Actually the worst part is that that every word is complete which signifies that the tone is extremely DAMN serious. "Because" and "Text" have been written completely which could have been written as "Becuz" and "txt" respectively. But I have no right to complain, because it is one of the clauses of the law made by my dear friend. So in essence, I am not complaining I am just saying that it felt bad to get such a text from you. That's all. 

Random!!!!!!

I hate it when my back is itching and I just can't reach the spot. My reaction is:

I go pale when I just don't know what to write in my exam and the student sitting besides me asks for an extra sheet I am like: "what the hell are you writing? Why do you need an extra sheet for?". My reaction is:

I hate it when I raise my hand in the class, confident that my answer is right and still the teacher asks the kid who has no idea about what is going on in the class.

It annoys me when someone is continuously along with me when I wanna be alone.

I feel stupid when my friends don't find anything interesting in something I like.

It feels awesome to help a student who is better than you in studies.

It can blow your mind away when you are watching your favorite movies and just then K.E.S.C swishes its magic wand and you get engulfed in total darkness.

Am I the only who hates it when you text your friends and get the reply when you are playing with your grand-children.

 

The choice one can never make: "Mother or Father". And you can only choose one.

It just doesn't matter if you misbehave throughout the year or talk in class while the teacher is teaching all that matters in that that you don't do any of these in the first class you have with that teacher. You know what they say "The first impression is the last impression". Not joking it really works!!!!

I am so good in the eyes of my teachers that they make the other boy stand even when i was the one who was talking to him and not him talking to me XD.

People say that there is not life without music and  love. I think water and oxygen are more important.

 

    

 

Family.

Having a family is always important. It is one of the most essential part of our lives and life gets really very hard without them. Parents, siblings, relatives all are quite equally important. Lets have a look at my family.

First of all my Father. He is a great man, loves and cares a lot, but can beat the whacko out of you if you are not implementing whatever he is ordering. He gives the ordinance and soon it becomes the law. He is very hard worker and has done a lot of favors to other people. However, I am not really that much connected with my Dad. He has been working for about 30 years in Saudi Arabia and I am in Pakistan. I spend hardly 3 to 4 months with him in a year. He calls me "Gullu Gulfaam"( don't know what does it means exactly but it surely is a good thing) and the "Gentleman" ( from which side do I look like a gentleman, oh well). He is never angry at me most of the time nad that is a superb thing. He calls me to Saudi Arab every year, thanks to his company where he works that they offer free air tickets to any three members of our family and that includes me :D. He really gets mad when i don't go to the Masjid or miss Salat deliberately. He is not very much open to jokes and is a very serious kind of a person. He came to Saudi Arab with the mission to earn enough money to get his sisters married and take his Mother ,my Dadi, to Hajj. He successfully got 3 of his sisters married and even took Dadi on Hajj. He himself has performed Hajj FIVE TIMES!!!! can you believe that :O. 

Then comes my Mother, the greatest of all women in my eyes. my mother taught me lot of things and helped me in times when I had lost hope or when I was tense or stressed. she always reassured me and help me keep calm and cool. She used to teach me that the tongue is a weapon sharper than swords so use it wisely. This is the truth, wounds afflicted by the tongue seldom heal rather they may bleed till you die or even if they do heal the pain and the mark shall be left forever. So we should be extremely careful not to offend anyone with our speech. She served me and my siblings even when she was afflicted with the deadliest of diseases. I don't even know the name of the disease, but it had weakened her muscles, all of them. She could not smile properly and had problems getting up on her feet and walking and sat on the floor rarely and even if she did I had to pick her up. Sadly the worst day of my life came of 28th of January Saturday. The memories of that day shall remain in my mind till I die. That day we went to a cousin's marriage. when it was time for dinner, I had only started eating when my cousin sister came to me and told me that something has happened to your mom. I ran for my mother and saw that she was choking on something she ate. She couldn't breath and in a matter of as few minutes she passed away. Now my life seems so empty and there is nobody to share my feelings to. Sometimes I do share my feelings but its seems that no nobody is interested in the depressive talk of mine so I change the subject myself even when I don't want to. I wanna tell so many things to others but nobody cares so why should I waste my time as well as their time?

Then comes my All rounder sister NIDA baji. she is very good, beautiful, hardworking and cheerful. She is great at teaching and she got married at 18th January 2006. Her husband's name is Sajjad and now she has two kids, Fatima and Mustafa Mashs'Allah. :).

Then comes Javeria baji. She has literally taken the place of my Mother after she passed away. She is sacrificing a lot just to take care of me and my other siblings. She manages the house very efficiently even when she also has to study. She is the Queen of the house and all the others are poor slaves. Whatever she orders has to be done. She makes me work like a maid in the house. Sometimes I have to chop the onions and tomatoes. Sometimes I gotta peel the potatoes and eggplants. Once she even told me to wash her abaya, scarf and socks. MAN!!! at least do this yourself (yaar kam az kam ye kaam to khud krlo, assra krlo bachey ki jaan ka). She has also made me a sweeper WOW! (-_-). she makes me such a lot at home but she is great anyway :D.

Then comes Bushra baji. She is an emotional softie like me. She has a hard cover but a soft heart( this is what we call Coconut nature, hard from outside and real soft inside). She calls me selfish if I ever refuse to help her in her university work. Let me tell you, if you want to get your BUM kicked real hard just be rude to bushra baji for a sec or maybe just show a little disrespect to her or be rude to her and then let the magic begin. She will ridicule you in such a way that even your upcoming 7 generations will also remember that HUMILIATING INSULT . Her anger can go to unpredictably high levels in a matter of seconds and something you never expected may happen to you. When she hates someone she really knows how to show her hatred. She rarely forgives people who have hurt her some way or another.

Then comes Omer bhaijaan. He is the best. He is a source of guidance for me with things related to the outside world and studies. He drives very well and is a very diligent person. He never delays work and is always there to help his siblings parents or relatives. He is very sensitive and is almost a robot like he can go to attend his coaching class after taking a nap of about an hour before which he had been awake for about 14 to 15 hours. He is The Best Big Bro anyone can ever have in this whole world :D.       

Then comes Salman (-_-) :S. The only problem in my life. Where ever I am, he is. He rarely leaves me alone and it seems to me that God has appointed him to keep a watch on me. Annoying me and asking me dumb questions is his only job. Annoying me (mujhe tapana) is his only purpose of life. Farooq what's that? who is he? who is she? what are you doing? can I use the PC? and an endless list of questions that never seems to end. If he hears a joke, he repeats it to me from morning till nightfall. Never leaves me alone and seems more like my personal bodyguard than younger brother. I hate the fact that he is my brother and I can do nothing to about it. He rarely obeys me and is always the first to object to whatever I say. Never gives me respect and is very irritating most of the time. My life seems so peaceful without him and I feel almost weightless and free when he is not around. The world seems to be wonderful. But  guess one day he will turn up to be the best member of our whole family, this is what javeria baji thinks, not me :). Hope is all I have for him that one day he would change, He is also very non serious about his studies.

Well that's all folks. Family is family no matter what they do or how much they annoy you you still gotta cope up and adjust with them and well that's all you can really do. They may kick your ass, insult you, make you work like a slave girl, but at the end of the day you realize that they are the only one who will be sincere to you even in the most difficult of times and they are never gonna leave you. My world is only limited to some relatives, some teachers, some friends and closest to me are my siblings and Dad.   

This post has gone way too far so i'll stop writing now. By the way i would like to quote something by Christopher Lasch here:  "The family is a haven in a heartless world."           

 

The Great RKR!!!

She became my friend when we were in the eight standard. Our friendship was later consolidated two years later. She gave me her mobile number a few months back. I thought that she wanted to take a look at my ghatia bekaar useless cell phone but she herself saved her number in my cell phone even when I had not asked for it. WOW!!! acha khair hai, lets move ahead.

But I noticed that whenever I used to text her, I would only receive the reply reply at night and no sooner. She would never reply before 10 or 11pm at night. Obviously, she was busy studying in the day but the wait for her to reply was quite irritating for me. This happened a lot and to such an extent that i was compelled to give her the title of RKR!! Raaton ki rani ( English translation: The Queen of Night, consider it my favor upon you O reader, if you don't know URDU XD).

To my surprise she liked the title, not the English one but the Urdu one. She herself started using it like : "RKR would be back after dinner to talk  to you, don't go to sleep" XD.

Now let us focus on the qualities of the great RKR. She rises in the darkness of the night, when people are fast asleep. She will talk to anyone who wants to talk to her but Beware!! She may leave you utter darkness, venturing forth into the darkness, leaving you behind trembling with fear. She doesn't even give damn to someone who get between her and her sleep even if that person is one of her best friends. She is graceful, funny powerful, brave, cheerful, bold, and yet has no control over her sleep. So don't you fret when she stops replying to your text messages abruptly.

But in the morning when she wakes up from her sleep the personality of the RKR fades away and the "Unreal" she comes out. RKR inhibits her body, living there silently to raise her head only in the darkness of the night.

To me it seems they are two souls in a single body, one takes over the other in the course of time and this change of personalities in unending.

So readers now you know who the great RKR , Raaton ki Rani, Queen of Nights is. She is the queen whom nobody can match, not even in a single aspect.

     

The Hangout!!!

It all started at 10pm Wednesday 23th may. My friend called me and told me that we are going to atrium mall  to watch The Avengers in 3D!! 

Suddenly my head got filled with a load of questions. How shall we go there? Who else will be coming with us? With whom shall we go? What is the cost of the ticket? When would the show start? 

My friend told me to SHUT UP! get over with the Rapid Fire session and listen carefully. He told me that three other friends of ours would also be joining us, the ticket is rupees 500/- only along with the 3D glasses which only cost rupees 150/-, the show will start at 12pm tomorrow which was Thursday 25th may.  He also told me that I have to come to his house along with Zeerak and then from his house we will go to the mall with his driver. I also asked him about some other details too.

That night I slept at 4am and then I woke up at 9:20 am. My head was still spinning due to the drowsiness when suddenly my cell phone started ringing. I picked my cell phone up and it was Zeerak.

"Hey, Farooq I am standing at your doorsteps" said Zeerak.

I quickly rushed to the wash basin, washed my face, wore a cap to hide my extremely disheveled  hair, opened the door, greeted him in and made him sit in the drawing room. I got ready in 5 minutes and both me and zeerak set out to Omer's house. 

We reached Omer's house at almost 10:30 am. When we reached there, to my surprise my bestest friend Huzaifa was already there. We all greeted each other and at 10:45 omer's driver was at the door. Quickly we got seated in the car and set out to atrium mall. On our way we picked Saad up whose not such a good friend of mine but he is quite a good friend of Omer.

We were at the mall at 11:20 am. We used the elevator to go to the top floor where the cinema is. We bought the tickets and 3D glasses and at almost 11:50 we were seated in the cinema, all in one row and luckily I got seated next to Huzaifa :D. It was pitch dark and only the screen and the guy with a torch in his hands to guide people to their seats in the darkness were visible. Omer, Saad and Zeerak had bought drinks. I and Huzaifa didn't buy anything. We ate and drank from what they had bought. BTW Huzaifa and I bought drinks in the middle of the movie. The others didn't even get to know that we had bought drinks and we drank them alone. Now you may calculate the level of our cleverness (Haramipan, chalaki, kaminapan) XD.

The movie started at 12pm [Pakistan Standard Time(PST)]. The movie was fantastic.The super heroes, plot, story, and the graphics were outstanding. The movie was full of awe-inspiring action scenes. It was thoroughly enjoyable and it was worthy of being watched in the cinema with big 3D glasses on. The funniest character of the movies was Doctor Bruce Banner who turns into the Hulk, the big crazy green guy, when ever he is angry, stressed or excited.

After the movie, we ate at the atrium's food court on the top floor. After that we set out for Omer's house again and dropped Saad at his house in our way. 

We reached omer's place, then got seated in his bedroom, took some pictures, ate gola ganda (flavoured crushed ice ball XD). Then at almost 5:15 pm, I, Huzaifa and Zeerak left Omer's home and set out for our's. we dropped Huzaifa on our way home. I reached home at 6:00 pm, having a enjoyed hell of a lot!!!!!!!!!

It was a day I would never ever forget in my whole life. Meeting my friends with no worries of studies or homework. Free from my stupid CIE O levels examinations. Then going to watch such a great superheroes action movie along with some of my best friends multiplied the fun by a 1000 degrees. BTW I was madly missing ONE of my friends before, during, and after the movie. I wished that that friend of mine could join me but that would never happen even in the wildest of my dreams. Overall, the trip was a magnificent and outstanding experience which I will always remember.

 

I Abhor You!

I don't ever wanna see your face
Your existence in the human race
 

Is nothing but more then a bloody disgrace
I crave to crush your face with a big heavy mace
 

You are so irresponsible, can't tie your own shoelace
You cant walk fast, can't keep up the pace

You are so confused, turned your life into mazes
I pity you because nobody can save you from the horrific gazes

Your strange choices, Your pathetic way of life 

Will lead you nowhere but a deadly demise.

The hopes and promises you used to advertise
were all nothing but a bunch of lies

You never respected anyone or upheld family ties
You have wronged yourself to the point where the soul dies.

Your logic and theories have no bases
The courts are filled with files of your cases

You know what bothers me the most
When you are the guest and I am the host

All you have done up till now in life is boast
It would be better for the world if you die in a shipwreck near the coast

When you act too much like a boss
People get nothing from you but loss

If you would have treated other people with kindness
You would surely have attained invaluable happiness

You walk on Earth with your cheeks swollen with pride and arrogance
You have never learned the lesson of tolerance

What you be ashamed of the horrible crimes you have done
The people you have hurt, seek their forgiveness and beg their pardon

If you want to change its still not late
If you want to be good then just don't sit and wait

It's always your choice on which path you select
But let me tell you that only in the right path lies respect.